On Vulnerability and Human Experience

إقرأ هذه القصة بالعربية

I choose to be a martyr.

Identifying and immersing myself in bastions of stereotyping, anger towards, and fear of those who identify as LGBTQ individuals is something that I once avoided. Now, I find that through participating in these social forums, every word, gesture, laugh, feeling of empathy that is shared between all of us leads to a deeper understanding of each other.

Vulnerability without guaranteed reward is frightening. But who begins to be vulnerable? Who begins the process of destroying the barrier of certainty that one may have built around oneself? In my personal struggle to make others understand how I, as a gay individual, may share similar feelings about love and life as they do, I open myself up to the possibilities of ridicule, and taunts that my idealistic notions have failed–that I have taken on more suffering for nothing.

And yet, my barrier is still gone. My soul finds the urge to create and find kindred spirits; that is, those without the mask that shields their vulnerability. That shields recognition of others that, though they may seem different, share a common humanity and, many times, common experience.

Through acknowledging the plight of others and helping those in pain, it may be harder for them to dehumanize me, to not place my entire being into context. If only positively affecting one, two, or three people that may have placed me into a box upon sight, I feel honored to have contributed that much to the alleviation of homophobia in our world.

– Grant H.



About Raynbow Blog

Raynbow is a nonprofit group that raises awareness and funds to support the lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender (LGBT) movement in Lebanon. The Lebanese LGBT Media Monitor is a project by Raynbow to raise awareness and keep you informed about the latest developments from the LGBT community in Lebanon. Our online store: http://raynbow.net Our blog: http://raynbow.info Our Facebook Page: http://fb.com/LebLGBTmonitor Our Twitter handle @LebLGBTmonitor
This entry was posted in Personal Story and tagged , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink.

2 Responses to On Vulnerability and Human Experience

  1. khaleel says:

    مازالت المثليه الجنسيه امر مرفوض في المجتمع الاردني وشي
    مردول وينظر لهم نظره دونيه ويوصمون بانهم (منايك
    ويتبرء منهم الجميع في حاله معرفه حاله احدهم وتتعرض انفسهم للخطر الماحق الذي يصل لحد القتل
    لاتوجد ايه جمعيه في الاردن تعنى بالدفاع عن هذه الفئه او تساندها رغم انا قانون العقوبات الاردني لايجرم هذه العلاقه بوضوح النص حتى لو تمت الممارسه الجنسيه اذا كان ذلك بالتراضي
    وهي حتما هنا بالتراضي

    اننا نناشد المنظمات العالميه التي تعنى بحقوق الانسان والمو اطن ونناشدكم دعم هؤلاء بالضغط على الحكومه الاردنيه للسماح لهم بتاسيس جمعيه اوتنظيم لهم يدافع عنهم ويقدم لهم سبل الارشاد الصحي والنفسي والروحي

  2. Pingback: ست قصص جديدة تتصدى لرهاب المثليين والمثليات في لبنان « Raynbow Media Monitor

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s