Life is not always sunshine for anyone, not even for me! I feel this vigorous urge to share my story knowing that guys my age believe that nobody cares about them.
YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
You may not be gay, but if you suspect someone you know is, don’t attack them, talk to them! You have a reason and a purpose in life, and you are FABULOUS!
In school I used to be the popular kid, I had a lot of friends who stuck by me and still do to this day. It was rough being different. I hung out with girls and never fit in the boyish groups. I knew I was different. In middle school, a name emerged. The boys started calling me GAY. I didn’t tell them they were right about me; I kept it hidden until high school.
It was such a hard road through high school. During the 10th grade, I decided that I was going to come out and tell everyone who I really was, so I did. After the news broke, my friends slimmed down to pretty much 2. Only 2 whom I felt I could trust and tell anything to. I didn’t have a family I could talk to but I had these 2 friends that I felt like I can talk to about anything.
Sometimes I feel like I want to change the minds of everyone. It’s been a long road since then, but I can honestly say looking back, and seeing now that I more than achieved my goal, I developed a drive to succeed and became filled with ambition.
I went back to high school the next year with a new way of living. Words rolled off me like they were rain drops, but I think finding yourself is the biggest way you can change your life. Not everyone is born to be an actor or a model. However, EVERYONE is born with a purpose in life, and your goal is to find it.
Being kind of openly gay has been the biggest restriction in my life. I’ve accomplished so much in my life, stuff that most people will never be able to do or see or have the opportunity to experience, and all that during 17 years only! I’m thankful that my life was spared and I was able to do the things I have done. One of the things I learned in these 17 years is YOU CAN DO GREAT THINGS. Every dream, goal or wish is achievable no matter how insane people may think it is. If you fall, pick yourself up and try again. You can’t fall forever!
Another lesson in life is that you just need the support of your own spirit to achieve what you aim for. I believe in everyone whether you’re gay, straight, bisexual, black, or white.
I haven’t lived the peachy perfect life that people seem to think I did, I’ve had an extremely rocky and rough childhood, but all of it molded me into the amazing person I am today. I don’t say that in a cocky way. I say it confidently. Everyone is amazing, everybody has to find their own beauty and they have to rock it!